karmit19 blog post

The person you love ..

Sometimes there are situations where you feel you're suffocating. The words are lost within yourself.
Out of this stupid stuttering indicates insecurity.
Some body shaking, rattling lips, you're afraid. Even yourself.
Look left and right, as if the road is that you can give you the answers.
But that's exactly the same, the same stone, same tree.
Have to decide.
Two ways to hurt you. One memory and one of courage that could explode.
So you sit down. As if this thing carries you decided for you.
Close my eyes, flashing lights in the dark.
Start thinking about what used to be. Familiar, known, floral, protected .. Sounds perfect!
But no, it turned into something else. Hit .. Painful ..
That you have so many scars from it until you became ugly.
Then perhaps you should run, not really able to take it again.
Open eyes. Decides to leave, do it all over again.
Open. Trust. Please. Teach your body to deal with something new.
Take your heart away that he's hiding it well now.
You're languishing here and your roots already signed their names instead of the worst.
Instead you can not decide. Two steps on this path and back. Two steps for that and back. It will not become simpler. He did not come out of hiding.
He will not let you.
He wants what he thinks best for him.
He chose for you.
And how ugly that it will be is hope and pray for that person you still look beautiful!