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My relationship.

It all started when I saw his profile on a dating app. We were always chatting, calling, and sharing our lives. I was in a different time zone, but we made it work.
But after a while, on my birthday, he had promised to make it special. I waited all day for his call, but it didn't come until really late. When he finally messaged, it was all about his bad day. I barely got a "Happy Birthday". I felt so disappointed, but I told myself that he had a rough day and let it slide.
There was the time I passed an important exam. It was a huge deal for me. I had been studying for months, and when I finally passed, I was happy. I couldn't wait to share my success with him. But his reaction caught me off guard. Instead of being happy for me, he quickly shifted the conversation to the tough exam he once passed. He went on about how his exam was more challenging and how he managed to score even higher.
Slowly, I started realizing that our conversations were mostly about his life, his achievements, his problems. When I shared something about my life, it turned into something about him. Compliments became rare, and sometimes his words felt more like criticism than support.
I had never been in a relationship like this. I felt like I was losing a bit of myself, always trying to adjust to his moods and opinions. The idea of meeting him in person, which once seemed so exciting, now filled me with doubt. I started questioning whether this was what I really wanted.