Blackthorne

More about me:

My name is Bob, I am widowed eight years now, my second marriage is completely over, and “Starting Over”. Again, and I hate it.
Without the rights of passage that we experienced growing up, such as dating, adolescence, high school, college, graduation, proms, the back seats of cars, just not as “out there” as I used to be (if I ever was) and so I am trying to force things, and relationships can’t be forced. They must grow, like sweet tomatoes on the vines in the organic garden that my daughter (newly with child) takes care of in my back acre yard.
I live in North Great River on Connetquot Park Preserve on two acres with 2 homes which contain within and without, 2 daughters, 1 son-in-law, 3 horses, 2 Rottweilers with tails good for grabbing when they run, 10 chickens (love the eggs), 2 cats, 1 cockatiel, 1 blue parakeet and assorted wild things like fox (watching the chicken coop), turtles, garter snakes, raccoon, opossum, two hawks and their wild peers.
All of the aforementioned pet companions were adopted or taken from bad situations, something that I have done my entire life.
I am the eldest of 15 siblings (all singles), so lots of stories to tell about sibling rivalry and the fact that I got all of the best genetic material via Dad and Mom being the first. Mom and Dad still kicking.
Like most of us, I have baggage, faults, virtues, likes, dislike, bad habits, but am always striving to be a better human being, and live in peace and harmony with the world we live in and those other humans and creatures that we share it with. In truth, this is how I would describe me if described by other people that know me. A bit enigmatic, a bit contrary, but not a lie either.
Some may say that I am a true Gemini.
I say that I have always been a rugged individualist, who might go with the flow, but never run with the herd.
I am loyal to a fault, honest, family orientated, love cuddling, holding hands, (and my own alone time as well), good food (preferably organic), cooking, writing, movies, my pet companions, and want someone to share the rest of my Life with, and I want to share their thoughts, moods, and life with me. I am a Romantic, but not always romantic. But loving, yes.
I am a strong man, quietly stubborn and determined, I see the glass as half full, never want to give up .
I like all genres of music, and love the variety it offers. I have seen Leonard Bernstein conduct the N.Y. Philharmonic, Willie Nelson and Tony Bennet at Radio City, Bonnie Raitt, Smokey Robinson at Westbury, lots of oldies, Maroon 5 and James Taylor at Jones Beach, and George Strait and Taylor Swift at Mohegan Sun. I even enjoy rap once in a while when it is intelligent or dance worthy. If you saw my Pandora list or IPOD, you would understand.
I like to dance. I love to sing. Sometimes, I do both well.
I can also rope with my lariat and ride a horse, and sing George Strait and Willie Nelson or Bonnie Raitt, too, if you want.
Oh well, probably not.
A Journeyman Steamfitter by employment, a published writer at heart and soul, a human being by design, I miss sharing it all that I am, was, and want to be with my wing woman, peer, friend, lover, and ???....... my muse.
I’d like to know about you, just sit and listen and see if we mesh. I hope that you are a strong willed person. I like that.
I eat organic, use organic products, utilize holistic medicines for myself, family and pets whenever it is feasible, and I am clean and hygienic.
I drink bourbon and ginger or organic cucumber vodka with tonic, or occasionally Irish whiskey. You noticed that I said “or” and “occasionally.”
I cook, clean, and do laundry quite well. However these are required chores that I take pride in doing, not talents that I wish to show off.
I like shows, theater, and the like, as expressed above. But I want to do these things with someone I love and who loves me in return. There is no joy in going alone for me. My daughters, son in law and I went to see Bonnie Raitt (she is great) and I was stag. A bit lonely, like trying to applaud with one hand.
Sometimes I just want to live like a hermit because it seems just too hard to start over.
But …………it isn’t even intimacy, or sex, or even conversation.
There’s just something lacking in my life that a first-class book, a great dog, wonderful children, a whopping family, fantastic second story deck dinners surrounded by family, Life and wildlife, and ???
And yet occasionally satisfied, I don’t feel fulfilled.
Howv about you?
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