J_dragonheart

More about me:

i'm shy about photos; the camera doesn't seem to like me much, but i'm adorable in person.

here's the long version of my story:

i am a homebody, big time. my idea of a good time is curling up with a good book. i'm trying to become the best graphic pencil artist in the world. i also crochet and sometimes write. my life is very recovery-oriented. i do have some emotional issues for which i take meds. i've been sober in aa for 16 years. i have 2 dogs, 1 cat, & 2 birds. i had to give away 6 reptiles because of the situation in my life, but i intend to get them back. my childhood was horrible so i don't know how to play. i'm trying to learn, but i'm not even sure who i am yet. i have a 37 year old son who lives apart from me. i have to admit that i hate texas with all my heart, & would love to relocate to just about anywhere else. there's this island in maine that is my dream. i sing a lot, just about constantly. i'm a good cook, but i like cooking (and all other chores) to be shared. i really want a horse again one day. the first 56 years of my life haven't been very happy. i am well acquainted with poverty and homelessness. i'm trying to reinvent myself right now. i think i want bohemian, but i don't know how to put it together yet, so i'm a work in progress. i'm emotionally high maintenance and not ashamed to admit it. i'm missing a lot, but i'm out of room.

I'd just like to add...

i love animals, books, movies, crocheting, god and drawing. i sing constantly (and i have a good voice. because i have a nervous condition, quiet is important to me--that's why i need to live in the country. i love to garden, too, but i can't dig my own garden any more. i would love to take a huge space and turn it into a paradise, put in a pond and flowers and a vegetable garden, and be allowed to happily putter about.

About my ideal partner:

i'm looking for:
old-fashioned. ABSOLUTELY faithful. i've had my heart broken by that one too many times. i need a man who DOES what he says he's going to do, always. i want a man who dresses nicely & cares about comportment. money is important. i'm sorry, but it is. in my whole life i've never even made it UP to poverty level, and i want the rest of my life to be comfortable. no more living in my car & eating out of dumpsters, & losing everything over & over bcz the $ to keep it wasn't there. i want a paid-for house, a good income & life insurance. my disability is $900 a month. he has to be gentle. he can never yell, it puts me into tears immediately. i want a man who still believes it's his job to take care of his woman & is proud to do so. i want him to tell me he loves me every single day and bring me flowers just because. i've been treated BAD; now i want to be treated like a princess. i know i deserve it and i'm worth it, even taking into consideration that i can be difficult to live with. & he can't be fat. i little overweight is okay; i'm a little overweight, but i'm not trying to be perfect any more & i'm not looking for perfect, either. i'm after marriage, & there will be no sex beforehand. that oughta cut the flirts down. oh, well.